isnt it ironic

sometimes things aren't always the way it seems.
how true is this statement.
why is there such a thing as selfishness?
and
why must there be such a thing as emotions?
sometimes it's best to be ignorant because ignorance is bliss.
it's always better not to know too much.
somethings are just beyond your control.
so what happens then?
do we jus leave things as it is or continue to believe that you can make a difference?
sometimes family stinks.
sometimes friends stinks.
do u leave people once they become of no use to u?
or do u stick by ur frens no matter wad?
why do people bother sometimes?
when u are friends with someone, is it because u care for that someone or is it because that person is of use to u?
when u are in a family with those people, u didnt choose. it jus happened.
so what happens frm here?
does one make the most out of it?
or do we simply jus bitch and complain abt one another?

currently listening to Hoobastank's - The Reason.
how true, "i'm not a perfect person but i continue learning."
i guess the most impt is to nvr gif up on urself.
when u noe how to love urself, only then will u know how to love others.
i miss my innocence. i miss the days when nobody mattered to me (that wud probably refer to the days when I was still in my mum's stomach and when i was a baby)
but ya. ignorance is still bliss. when u have to depend on others and the world and wad was happening ard u cudnt bother/affect u. how nice huh?

i miss my grandpas. i hope they r well somewhere out there.
i miss them taking care of me. i wish they were still ard. perhaps things wudnt be the way it is now.

i need to concentrate my energy on things more worthy of my time. did i mention things? i think so. sometimes when u are concerned with people it jus isnt worth it. it jus eats u alive, slowly but surely.

positive thinking is wad gets me further.
perseverance is key.
focus is good.
i think i need a new toy.
i'm bored.
i need a holiday.
lets hope and pray i get to go on a holiday at the end of the yr.
visit my aunt! woohoo! go there and dun return! be a fugitive! haha.

well for nw there are more impt things for lydia to face such as her tutorial! so off she goes to do it.
take care all!